I was playing Zelda: Ocarina from Time for half a day... Started a new game since I don't remember anything LOL.

and I'm almost past the point of where I got stuck previously?? ROFL.
WHAT THE HECK WAS I DOING IN MY CHILDHOOD VIDEO GAME YEARS \o/.
apparently going "why isn't it working ;A;" and going in circles probably... Getting owned and freaked by zombies in the tomb/graveyard etc.
I swear I spent alot of time on it when I was in primary school o_o'


But god. I forgot how good these games were ;A;.
Maybe I should replay Kirby 64 next time and try to see if I can beat this boss I couldn't beat after I tried like.. 30 times. 8DDD

LINKKK\o/


MORE LINKKK \o/



and drew it for the hairdresser and his sons, when me and my mum went today. LOLWHUT.

I got a new hairstyle \o/
Goodbye Chizuru hair \o/

WHAT WAS WITH THE ENDING WHATTT.
I'VE NEVER BEEN SO UNSATISFIED WITH A GAME IN MY LIFE WHATTTTT.
The ending/credits movie... it was like half an hour long or something ijorgoirg.

They pulled off a Haruhi Polka is voiced by Aya Hirano with some crazy time thing without any proper explaination whattt and Astra concept was never really explored lol.
Magical dead Chopin I don't even--

( gaming rant )

I guess I'll start playing Tales of Rebirth next...

I recorded myself saying Maria (Umineko no Naku Koro ni) stuff....


Maria voice 1 with UUUUU.
Maria voice 2 with KIHIHIHIHI.



and I don't even like Maria. Why do I even sound like her.
UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I miss drawing my original characters


\o/ quick doodle \o/
Hi Kouji.


I haven't been thinking about my manga plot AT ALL.

Ahhh, After I read chapter 42 last time... I had a short (.. like 2 page) doujin idea I wanted to do based on Break's condition. on my you know what OTP. Thinking about you know who.


and then the recent chapter just did it . My idea was more dialogue, butttt uwaaaaaaaaa
AHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh


It's like my fandom dreams came true \o/\o/\o/\o/HEHEHHEHEE

So yesterday I made an apple studel for my dad's birthday (well is birthday is on the 27th, but he's going to China on the 26th). Since I remember he used to like buying it when I was a kid.

I failed at wrapping it properly so I screwed it up a bit. and I think I put the settings on the oven wrong
so it got burnt at the top.


but in the end it turned out alright \o/
Dad was all ":3 my good girl~~ *patpat*"
Miyu "=| ....;;;" (Is actually happy but didn't think I did anything great orz")

but it was generally guud \o/

I spent 1/4 of the time scolding my grandma to GTFO of the kitchen or NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS \o/ DON'T BOTHERRRR. IGNOREEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE when I was cookin though.
like... She tries to be helpful, but rather, she makes situations worse???? Stuff like cleaning when I haven't finished etc etc

Grandma "We already have apples D:...... and it's was $___/kg the other day. it's probably $___ today.... D8......"
Miyu "So? I like buying apples. Anything wrong with that? (Do you want me to walk back and demand a refund??)"

orz"" I really need to stop being so short tempered and snappy at home DX;

Dear felys_sho


Stop tempting me to cosplay Len ;A;.... ffff


UH, THIS IS A MAYBEEEE. mayyyyyyyybe.
MAYBBEEEEEE.
I just took screencaps in case.. ..whetougheuohg.
Just you wait. If バルシェ decides to sing this, I'd want to cosplay it x10


That reminds me, I still need to reshoot Imitation Black because I looked so damn fugly and needed to fix my wig and makeup better sobbbb

Omgggg...

Yuu (my favourite cosplayer).. She cosplayed Oichi *___*;; and she made it so much better than mine too and suited it so much better than me *________*;;;;;;
Here's her blog photo of her silly face

I wanna remake mine now~~!!! *v*''
I'm planning to remake my Leon to be as good as hers (hopefully) anyway ;A;

So now we've both cosplayed
Leon, Mio Amakura, Tifa, Miku (World is mine), Oichi UWAAAA \o/
and I did plan/think about Ruka (Fatal Frame 4) and Reira.. and I don't plan on finishing my Lili (Tekken) anytime soon

Uwaaaaaa. Yuu-sama~ Everytime I see her cosplays it's like COMPLETE DEFEAT \o/ for me~~ She pwns me so, but I'm so happy to see her cosplays because they're so perfect and her makeup is so guud. hopefully I can learn from it *______*;;;;;;;;;;;

I wanna finish off some games in my holidays \o/ so I can play new ones \o/


Games I want to play
- Persona 3 PSP
- Persona 4
- Heart Kuni no Alice // PSP
- Starry Sky (~In summer~ esp LOL)
- FF7: Crisis Core
- FF13... when it comes out
- Shounen Onmyouji: Tsubasa Yoima, Ten e Kare - It's n/a on the sites I get games off anymore ;A;
- Tales of Hearts
- Tales of Versperia // PS3 (After playing Tales of VS with Farah and Yuri, I think that Yuri is quite cute. sob)
- Tales of Abyss JP version
- Tales of Symphonia
- Tales of World: Radiant Mythology 2 (... I haven't even finished the 1st one orz")
- Umineko no naku koro ni - my DL isn't working orz"""
- Ookami Kakushi
- Sweet Pool
- Project Diva
- Tekken 6
- Devil May Cry 3
- Devil May Cry 4


Games I have but yet to play
*.hack//Mutation
* The Bouncer
* Final Fantasy 12
* Shadow Hearts 3
* Shaman King PS2 game LOL
* Tales of Tempest
* Tales of Rebirth
* Tales of Innocence
* Rhapsodia
* Tomb Raider // PSP
* Monster Hunter // PSP
* Dragon Ball: Shinbudoukai 2 // PSP
* Tenchu Shinobi Taizen
* Vampire Chronicle: The Chaos Tower
* Death by degrees
* Soul Calibur 3
* Chaos Wars (I got this ages ago, whuts)
* Resident Evil: Outbreak File


Games to finish hopefully (??)
* American McGee's Alice
* Sengoku Basara 2: Heroes - Go through tournament with the rest of the half of charas, and level up everyone to 100.
* Odin Sphere
* Chaos Legion
* Sword of Mana
* Warriors Orochi // Sangoku Musou
* Final Fantasy Tactics Advanced - ... I never progressed much on the story.
* Final Fantasy 7: Dirge of cerberus - Didn't like the fighting system that much
* Final Fantasy 9 - I forgot where I was up to in disk 3 or 4, and it's too annoying to level up ;A;. But I'll tryyy
* Final Fantasy 10 - Need to level up and defeat last bosses
* Kingdom hearts 1&2 - Just need to level up and defeat last bosses in both games.
* Tales of Destiny //Leon's side: .. I forgot where I was up to.
* Tales of Destiny 2: 2nd Run, to get Leon's Judas's special mask breaking MAJIN RENGOKU SATSU
* Tales of Phantasia - I GOT STUCK IN A DUNGEON orz"
* Tales of World: Radiant Mythology
* Star Ocean 3 - Completely forgotten where I was up to and totally lost wandering around.
* Project Zero 1, 2 and 3 - I've never actually finished any of them. orz"
* Rule of Rose - my instructions are in chinese \o/ WEEE .. and I got stuck orz"
* Silent Hill: The Room - I GOT STUCK HAHAHAA. and I'm near the start. sob.
* Clock Tower 3 - The freakin stalker guy appears too much it's annoying
* Ouran HS host club - Just finish a route at least LOL. I still haven't finished Kaoru's route yet.
* Togainu no Chi: True Blood
* Soul Calibur 4 - all story/character modes
* Kuroshitsuji DS
* Zelda: Ocarina of Time - I got stuck a loooong time ago when I was a kiddy and never finished it.


Games currently playing:
* Subarashiki Kono Sekai // It's a wonderful world
* Tales of VS - Ikeru Ikeru~~! Played Leon/Kyle and Farah/Yuri's story~~ next up is MAOOO \o/
* Hakuouki Zuisouroku (Okita and Harada's route done \o/)

M FOR MILLEFIORE!!



Photo jacked from ravient :P



andd Maka CHOPPpp video from the soul eater shoot \o/\o/ lololol

I'm trying to think of something I could cook or something for my dad's birthday ^O^/

... any suggestions? orz"

Hakuouki 2010 calender sample illustrations \o/

Screw Hijikata... Chizuru and Okitaaaa ;3; ;;;



I want to cosplay it *A*;;; Either oneee...

When there's bigger pics yeay \o/



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やる気全然ないし、誰でもどうでもいいし、友達に会いたいけど同じ時に・・・会いたくない。

こんな気持ち、嫌い。こんなのいけない分かってるのに・・・人や友達がいなくても、一人でも笑いたいのに。笑えない。




いろいろが頑張ったのに。本当に考えたのに。変えるつもりだったのに。
なら・・・どうして今さら？　私は嬉しくなるのは、いけないかな？　私・・・足纏だけなのかな？家族のために・・・何もできないのかな。父さんに何をすれば、元気出すかな。誕生日も近いし・・・ばあちゃんの病気も少しずつ悪くなってる。


いつもの無力の自分が嫌い。


強くなりたい。もっと頑張らなくちゃ。自分にも負けないぐらい。
明日は・・・変われるかな。



*slaps faceeee* GOTTA CG! GOTTA FINISH ARTWORK GOGOGOGOriojgotjotj

Although I'm not liek BAWWWing or anything...


I couldn't sleep any more than 4 hours orz"

Today was alot of great fun, and happy birthday Yuki!!

thoughhhhhh I do have some bad news.


When me, my dad and Su got back to the car after we had dinner and talked etc, my dad's car was broken into LOL. what's. Only our one too, at a main road (Whats).

He lost $20 000+ worth of camera equipment/lens, and I lost my camera and lens.m(_ _)m, and we don't have any memory cards anymore either.
The tripods/stands and backdrop fabric are still there though.


"If only" is what I want to say.
"If only I didn't suggest to try and find parking"
"If only I carried my camera bag too, even though my dad asked me"
"If only I didn't ask him to wait for me when I'm with friends"
"If only we went home earlier like we were planning to"

but, if I have so much time to think about nonsense thoughts like that, I should moreover be happy and supportive to my dad, and think about what to do, and what to do within the 2 weeks before he goes to China.
He still has one proper camera left, but we have no lens at all now \o/.

I was a bit stunned (since something like this never happened to my family before) and I do blame myself to a certain degree even though I know it's something that can't be helped, but, it's because something like this has happened I need to get my act together. If I am depressed, my dad will suffer as well.

He says he doesn't blame me and he wanted to get new camera gear anyway... and he absolutely treasure me alot (as you all know), so for my dad and family's sake, I will not be hurt by it.
I admit, it was foolish and stupid of me to be naive and happy go lucky.
but from now on, I will even be more cautious than before.
That's what being an adult is all about right? Rather be depressed and complain, time to learn, move on, and do what we can right?
We aren't so much "depressed" about it. We were both pretty calm, though I was initially like. What the shiet because I felt really bad of me, since he didn't deserve it, and he was such a great dad the entire day. LOL.
Really sorry lunarfish if I worried you D_D;; \o/ I'm fine \o/
I thought my dad was joking at first when he said the car got broken into. LOL; Since he was like, joking about it when he parked the car there. D_D;;


This holidays, I will not be selfish. m(_ _)m;


PS, you guys better give me your photos lolololol

Changed my wallpaper \(^O^)/
To Masalenka Len! \o/


白皙様って、神すぎる！！！
同じ年なのに、なんでそんなに神だろうｖ。

Ahhhh 白皙-sama is the same age as me yet her artworks are so beautiful that I always swoon over her Len fanarts ;A;


God damn my art is so ugly and I'm so n00b in comparison... gotta try hard...... gotta improve..
TAT;;; I should stop cosplaying so much and draw more.. I improve so slow!!!

Random livestream doodles





MY OCs as children whats

My dad was commenting on the Gintama/Hakuouki shoot orz"
Dad "Hay, you look better when you're cosplaying guy characters than when you cosplay girl characters~~ almost as handsome as me :D :D"
miyukiko "No dad, I don't look good as guy characters, I ony look good as boys (Leng Jai // ガキ) :("


Anyway, after dinner, it was still bright, so I'm liek, hay dad, let's do a quick shoot \o/

so then I cosplayed Saitou LOL?!?!

Saitou is completely made from scrap /left over fabrics, Leon wig, katana's I already had etc. so I don't think I spent much money on it. Oh I'm so cheap.
Another Hakuouki cosplay done ^O^/ now I can work on new ones ^O^/

I was looking at old photos and came across this


From when me, strawbarry_gurl and lunarfish were cosplaying Ghost Hound ROFLMAOOO gdi, I totally forgot about this so I had a major LOL

There was a time I was totally into J-Rock stuff (esp Miyavi and Ancafe), so I did rly ghetto cosplays which never went completed or into light

HAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAA...;;;;


... the very first photo of strawbarry_gurl and me when I dragged her to come to Animania with me cus I didn't want to be a loner first conventionyo ROFLMAO. ... First time we met irl too lolol

GOOD TIMES YO. WHAT WERE WE? 15?16? OSHI-



Wait, breathless_ness, Did you cosplay Mai-Hime that year? o___o ......
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ohhh hey I see minami_373 in one of these photos too
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